Wednesday, January 23, 2008

Me like mess

I am so poorly motivated I didn't even want to write this blog post.

I just can't seem to get going. It must be the weather. All I want to do is huddle under 10 blankets and read a book or sleep or play World of Warcraft (yes, you can play WoW under the covers - don't ask how I know.). But there are things that need to be done - things that I want to get done and I just can't seem to make myself do any of them.

What are those invisible things that motivate us? And am I completely immune to them? Maybe I'm just so comfortable with who I am as a person that I don't fall into those things that typically trap and motivate people - guilt, disgust, shame, a desire to better myself. I'm okay with how I look (well, okay enough not to do anything about it), my skill set (who needs to learn how to play the guitar that's sitting in the corner), and with the fact my craft room looks like a epileptic tornado hit it (we can just close the door and no one has to know). I like me and that's enough.

Okay - so maybe that's all a big pile of crap and I'm just REALLY lazy. Who knows? The point is . . . well, I'm not sure what the point is. Maybe sometimes you have to make yourself do stuff even if you're okay with your . . . . bulk, intelligence, and filth. Maybe you'll be an even better person because of it. Maybe.

Maybe not.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

When I get "lazy" I just try to look at what I'm doing compared to what I want to be doing. Then I evaluate how important what I want to be doing is compared to how little I want to do it.

Logic can kick laziness' ass any day.